Recent Activities

Jatiluhur

Earlier this month, I (and the rest of student of PSIL UI) went to Jatiluhur Dam in West Java. I hate traveling so I can't say much about the trip, but I was lucky my body was cooperating very well...no excessive headache.

Pekan Lingkungan Indonesia 2012

Another activity was Pekan Lingkungan Indonesia (Indonesia Environment Week) held by my office, 14-17 July 2012. This is me on first day.

Mr. Budiono

I also had a change to take picture of our vice president.

Pekan Lingkungan 2012

Once again, unflattering picture of mine. It's hard to look good in photograph with greasy face, short hair and 5 kg weight gain :)

Jangan Cepat Tersinggung

Gue bukan orang yang penyabar atau lemah lembut. Sekarang udah jarang sumpah serapah, namun dalam hati sih masih, hehehe.. Sejak sakit gue jadi lebih sering tersinggung, terutama jika menyangkut penampilan..

Tapi gue berusaha tidak terlalu sensi, berpikir positif 'They're just trying to be nice" atau mereka tidak tahu kondisi gue...dan kalaupun tersinggung gue jawab singkat terus pergi.

Ada hal2 yang tampaknya simpel buat orang lain, tp entah kenapa gue tersinggung (dan berusaha gue tahan)...ini contoh2nya dan jawaban sebenarnya (dalam hati):

Mbak rambut baru nih?
Kampr** loe, bulan Januari gue masih botak!

Dan kalau mereka masi nanya kenapa gue botak padahal udah temenan lama di FB, males gue jawab. Ohya, pengecualian buat temen main game.

Segeran ya mbak? => maksudnya: gendutan?
Berat gue naik 5 kg gak bisa turun, bangs**!!!

Tapi (rambut gini) cantik kok...
I know I look good, I never said I look bad. I just want my long hair back.
and by the way, my hair is curlier than before FYI.

Semangat ya Ra..
Hey, do I look like I'm gonna die tomorrow???!!!!
=> hopefully no.

So please, if you're my friend and really care about me and reading this blog, please don't comment on how good I look with this hair...or my new 'freshness'.
Also I'm thinking about disable-in all comments in my picture.

How Do I Look?

I hope I look good. I just don't care about any comments. My hair finally grows out, I dyed it with cheap hair dye. I'm happy about it. I think I look cute (??) I unveiled my head-cover in April, tried not to reply any comment sarcasticly.

 This is what I look now. Short hair, 5 kg weight gain... ..something I really hate because there's nothing I can do about it.

 I try protein shakes for dinner. I try vegetables at night. Didn't work. Still have 5 kg to lose.

 I still can't exercise because I got tired ALL the time. Go ahead, make comments "do yoga". Unless you've had chemotherapy before, I wouldn't listen to that. I also wouldn't listen to 'you should take this zzz-herbs pills". I'm just tired hearing things.

 And lately I feel like ummm...like I just had chemo. Sore throat, light fever, bad coordination. But I don't mention it anymore because people would think I'm just lazy.

 Oh my, I just want to get rid of that 5 kg!!!

Benefit Chacha Tint

Right now I'm little bit obsessed with lipstain, so when my aunt went to Malaysia, I asked her to get me a lipstain.

She bought me Benefit Chacha Tint (and got herself a Benetint).

FYI, Benefit is not available in Indonesia at the time of writing.

What is a Chacha Tint? It's "This mango-tinted stain beautifully blushes lips & cheeks with a tropical sunset hue. Smooch-proof & smudge-proof, this sheer stain will have you looking deliciously sun-kissed for hours." according to the company.



It took many trial and (LOTS of) error to apply this product.

First, I dot it on my cheek, closed the caps, then worked on my right cheek first,then my left.

BIG mistake.

I got streak on my left cheek!!
At that time I realized that this product absorbed very very quickly. So now I can give you tips to apply the tint:

Open the cap, dot it on one side of your cheek, then blend immediately. Dot the other cheek and blend right away.
Then you can close the cap.

A-Ha!!!
Beautifuly flushed-cheek that lasts all day long!!

This is me wearing the tint. Please pay attention on my blush. I look fresh-er with this.

PS: don't forget to wash your hand after wearing this pigmented tint!

Pixy Color of Delight: Eyeliner and Eyebrow Pencil

Right now I'm interested on local product. Simply because they're cheaper, hehehe. Affordable cosmetics are something good when it comes to something we dont' use everyday, such as bright eyeliner.

I saw Pixy Color of Delight cosmetics in Hypermart. I was interested on their eyeliner because it seemed cute. According the website Mandom Indonesia Tbk this product is "multifunction pencil that can be used as eyeliner and eyeshadow. Available in white, maroon and green". Mine was green.

What they didn't mention is that this pencil had glitter...and also super long lasting. I washed my face many, many times that day and the green liner stayed. Well, not the glitter.



The second product I have is an eyebrow pencil. It's black.
I noticed my eyebrow became thinner since the chemotherapy, so my dark brown Revlon eyebrow pencil no longer natural on my eyebrow since it created reddish brown eyebrow! I don't want something expensive, hopefully my eyebrow will grow back after the chemo :)
The Pixy pencil is a good product. Not too hard, not too soft for eyebrow pencil. I love it. I mix it with my Revlon.

Probably because its dark color, I think it lasts longer than the dark brown Revlon.

I don't remember the price (both eyeliner and eyebrow pencil!), but I think it costs less than IDR 40,000.

Bottom line: Indonesian cosmetics have good quality these days, but I haven't found good local foundation. Yet.

Leukosit, up up up!!

Setelah 3x kemo, badan gue mulai ngadat. Rasanya gak kenapa2, hanya kadang2 pusing, namun hasil lab gak boong. Leukosit gue rendah, di bawah 2000. Setelah konsultasi dengan dokter, akhirnya Kamis 29 Sep kemarin gue suntik Leukokine.

Apakah itu Leukokine?
Gue gak tau. Dan gak nyari tau.
Pokoknya suntik. Berharap besoknya udah seger.

Ah harapan palsu.

Pulangnya, gue mulai merasa suara gue serak, dan tenggorokan agak 'tebal' ketika menelan. Abis itu gue mulai meler...tapi mungkin alergi ya karena udah mulai musim ujan..

Besoknya (Jumat) rasanya gak enak badan, tapi hidup masih normal.
normal ala dikemo, maksud gue...

Sabtunya gue tumbang. Bener2 tumbang. Tidur terus, cuman bangun buat makan dan keperluan2 penting lainnya. Gue baru bisa duduk depan tivi sekitar jam 17. Kucing gue aja kalah banyak tidurnya...

Hari minggu kembali normal. Rasa2 lemas, mual dan pusing berkurang. Asik, besok bisa ngantor.....

.....dan kembali harapan gue pupus karena hari Senin gue tumbang lagi dengan sukses!

Ohya, tulisan ini bukan analisis dokter lho...itu hanya apa yang gue rasakan setelah suntik leukokine...bisa jadi sebenernya gue flu tapi momennya bertepatan dengan leukokine, hehehe.

Paling penting adalah setelah suntik, leukosit gue naik dari 1800 ke 9600. Horeeee!!!

Finally..

Finally...that day. The day I went bald. Once again, I cried. But life goes on..now I have scarfs, headwear, hats to play with :)

I also played with my makeup. I wear bold colors..I highlight and contour my face...I think I look like a drag queen :)

This is me with mini bucket...isn't it cute? (the bucket, not me)


..with red lipstick...


And on a meeting, wearing my favorite headwear.